idiot

i am clearly an idiot.

1. i thought i could argue with a chinese classmate about the state of anything in china. only after i made an ass of myself for probably half an hour did another classmate bother to remind me that NOBODY can argue with 30 years of brainwashing. i guess i usually operate under my own hopeful illusions.

2. i can't write simple essays. i make the himalayas out of everything. always trying to save the world -- which is a completely futile undertaking.

update 11.04.2008: some 1000+ words written since i drafted and shelved this entry.